"Abandoned Love" lyrics - NILS LOFGREN

My heart is tellin' me I love ya still

I can see the turning of the key
I've been deceived by the clown inside of me
I thought that he was righteous but he's vain
Oh, but something's telling me I wear the ball and chain

My patron saint is fighting with a ghost
He's always off somewhere when I need him most
The Spanish moon is rising on the hill
But my heart is tellin' me I love ya still

I come back to the town from the flaming moon
I see you in the street, I begin to swoon
I love to see you dress before the mirror
Won't you let me in your room one time before I finally disappear?

Everybody's wearing a disguise
To hide what they've got left behind their eyes
But me, I can't cover what I am
Wherever the children go, I'll follow them

I march in the parade of liberty
But as long as I love you, I'm not free
How long must I suffer such abuse
Won't you let me see you smile before I turn you loose?

I've given up the game, I've got to leave
The pot of gold is only make-believe
The treasure can't be found by men who search
Whose gods are dead and whose queens are in the church

We sat in an empty theater and we kissed
I asked ya please to cross me off your list
My head tells me it's time to make a change
But my heart is telling me I love you, but you're strange

One more time at midnight, near the wall
Take off your heavy make-up and your shawl
Won't you descend from the throne from where you sit?
Let me feel your love one more time before I abandon it

My heart is tellin' me I love ya still
I love ya still