"Deliberate Self-Harm Haha" lyrics - OF MONTREAL

OF MONTREAL
"Deliberate Self-Harm Haha"
(Kevin Barnes)

The treatment, it did nothing for me
Nothing I recall
I'd feel just like a sociopath
If I was feeling anything at all
Pain won't make you beautiful
And pain won't make you strong
I knew that you thought both were true
And I guess I just played along
I guess I just played along

[Chorus:]
How does it feel to own
Such a trendy excuse?
It's just like Catherine says
Having boundaries is abuse

Now that I'm the paradigm
Of all that you resent
If you're ever kind I just
Assume it was an accident
You'd probably have a habit now
If we weren't so poor
I know I'm to blame for your DSH
Though not in the way I was before
Not in the way I was before

[Chorus:]
How does it feel to own
Such a trendy excuse?
It's just like Catherine says
Having boundaries is abuse

I can be combative, though
It's not always worth the fight
I'm so quick to correct myself
Even when I know you know I'm right
She said, "I don't want you dead
I don't even need you dead to me
But if I can't make you impotent
I know that I'll never be free"
I know that I'll never be free