"Caved In" lyrics - ATMOSPHERE
The door opened, in walked my brother terrified
Teary eyed, I'm wide open only to hear our father died
It's not true I'm hopin', I need some air, I'm chokin'
Get me off this ride. Where's life goin'? Feelin' I'm lost, I'm frozen
Suspended in mid-traumatized state
Why I'm chosen for this fate, I don't know
Head shakes back and forth
Emotional, insociable, not speakin'
Remain in silence 'cause I'm weak and
Deep inside I'm freakin'
Want my father, back I need him
Why's God cheatin', takin' half the two that gave me life
My mind replays the thought
Never longer can I sleep at night, not feelin' right
Insecure, now what's my future lookin' like
Ain't dealt with death before
Age eleven and can't take no more
My hands on the floor
'Cause my stomach's feelin' sick
And I was mad at the Lord
Because he took him all too quick
That day, on his way to pick me up
He never made it, blamed it all on myself
Therefore I dwelled in self-hatred
On a path called destruct
Many thought I wouldn't make it
I hated the way I feel
But I just can't seem to shake it
Somebody take it away, this mad situation
My world is breakin' and I feel I'm 'bout to cave in
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
Hey Dad, I miss you for everyday gone
And for the rest of my life tried to remain strong
Until we reunite, live on your memory
From the seeds you planted gently
Thanks for bein' there for me
And all the time you spent with me
Love sent for me
If I could only have that day back
To sit down and rap, shoot the breeze and have a chat
But the fact still remains still later
On the day I have to meet our Maker
I write my feelings on the paper for now
Along the golf course where you once played, I see you
As I drive by I feel you
Like your presence is there, I stop and I stare
I see the pictures of days we shared
Well aware that you cared
Making sure I was prepared for life
The hardships, the struggles
The garbage and the troubles that come with it
Always kept my head with it, I gripped it
Close to my heart, everything you taught me
My dad, my hero, you had my love for all eternity
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
I tried to take it all in
After it all settled I couldn't begin
Accepting you were gone
But understood
