"Slow Burn" lyrics - ATREYU

It begins with a dark glowing ember
Something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel
Scars all I see

Oh no, the fires burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left
You won't catch me regretting my decision

I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (what I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes

I know
That it's killing me
And it's poisoning
The best of me
What I see
I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone (to the bone)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight (no)

And after this I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it

I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (what I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes (close my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know
That it's killing me
And it's poisoning
The best of me
What I see (what I see)
I don't want to believe (want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

Calling
Calling out (calling out)
The darkest reaches of my soul are
Riddled with self-doubt
Crawling
Crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice when
Others would lay down

It's only as dark as you make it

I know (I know)
That it's killing me (it's killing)
And it's poisoning (it's poisoning)
The best of me (the best of me)
What I see (what I see)
I don't want to believe (want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead