"Weight Of The World" lyrics - BLUE OCTOBER

I black out in the room again
A busted lip and broken skin.
I wake up in the bathroom,
And dare not bother asking
Why the mirror is cracked and all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me
There's voices there to dare me
My father's here to scare me

And my mother she sits beyond the door
She's curled up crying on the floor
Look at what her son's done,
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
Wrong again.
Gone fucking wrong again.

Well liars they leave a guilty trail.
Let me tell you, I've been lying for years
That must be why I'm standing in this space
Constantly over and over, I'm
Disregarding that I have created these monsters!
They are on both of my sides
So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes
From all four of their eyes

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sill
Your heart's torn out
With a plastic spoon
When honesty lit up that room
So I stole the pillowcase to clean
This mess I made of someone's dream
Now you see what I've done
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong again
Gone fucking wrong again.

God, this room is old and wise and
I fall to the bed and wonder, "How did I get here?"
I was a little boy who would argue with a tree!
Go ahead, thump his head and he'll turn back to normal!
Now why is that what I see?

Don't bother trusting me.
Don't bother waiting.
Don't bother changing things that won't give in to changing.
Just let me go away.
I'm packed.
Down,
Whenever.
Let's go.
Let's really really go.