"Not Cause I Wanted To" lyrics - BONNIE RAITT

Well I'm calling you
Cause you deserve to know
You are not the reason I had to go,
Late at night in the hotel room
I think of all I've lost,
What I've put you through

And if I knew the reason
I would tell you why somehow
The feeling slipped away
I only did what I had to do
Not cause I wanted to.

I've got a guilty heart
And a troubled mind
No matter where I go
You're never far behind
I'd like to think
That you'd forgiven me
But forgiveness ain't enough
To wash my conscience clean

Oh if I knew the reason
I would tell you why somehow
The feeling slipped away
I only did what I had to do
Not cause I wanted to.