"Ponderlust" lyrics - BURTON CUMMINGS

I knew someday the music might get evil
I knew someday I'd be a helpless pawn
I knew sometime that I'd be judged with sinners
Can't go on

I know how hard it is to kill a memory
I know how hard it is to stay alone
I don't expect a lot of folks to like me
Don't matter now, they don't matter now

I know how hard it is to share your spirit
I know how hard it is to try and try
I know how cruel it is when things get shaky
And you cry, and you cry

Hard up, hard up for amusement
When you turned, you turned to the darker side,
You were never meant to understand the things that drive you
And those questions and those questions
They can tear you down

I know how envy does the strangest dances
I know how easy comes this thing called pity
I know how you can run
City to city
Lookin' for pity

Bridesmaids
The only solution
Isn't it amazing?

In a car, on a freeway
There's a priest who's cryin', a priest who's dyin'
In a graveyard beneath a full moon
I see a black cat lyin' with its throat cut

I know how age can wear the mask of wisdom
I know how easy it is to stumble too
So many questions that you can't get nappin'
It's true

I know how shitty it is when friends will use you
I know how hard it is to grow up tall
I know how losers can just turn your words round
Till you fall

I knew someday the music might get evil
I knew someday I'd be a helpless pawn
I knew sometime that I'd be judged with sinners
Can't go on

I know how hard it is when friends desert you
I know that love becomes this thing called "pity"
I know how you can run you can run
City to city, lookin' for pity

I know how age can wear the mask of wisdom
I know how easy it is to stumble, too
Too many questions and you'll never get nappin'
It's true, it's true
Yeah, it's true
You know it's true

What are we inside?