"So I" lyrics - CHARLI XCX

[Chorus:]
Always on my mind (Every day, every night)
Your star burns so bright (Why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I like singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry

Wish I'd tried to pull you closer
You pushed me hard, made me focus
Your words, brutal, loving, truthful
I was petrified
You're a hero and a human
Track was done, I'd make excuses
You'd say, "Come on, stay for dinner"
I'd say, "No, I'm fine" (Now I really wish I'd stayed)

[Chorus:]
Always on my mind (Every day, every night)
Your star burns so bright (Why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Say that I like singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry

Guilty feelings keep me fractured
Got a phone call after Christmas
Didn't know how I should act
I watched you dance online
Your sounds, your words live on, endless
When I make songs, I remember
Things you'd suggest, "Make it faster"
Would you like this one? (Maybe just a little bit?)

[Chorus:]
Always on my mind (Every day, every night)
Your star burns so bright (Why did I push you away?)
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage, sometimes I lie
Say that I like singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry, so I cry

[Outro:]
I, I, I, I
I, I, I, I
On my mind