"Random Reality Shifts" lyrics - COHEED AND CAMBRIA

This little runaway, against the golden cusp
She screams words of distrust to tease me
As the motor turns to thrust
Her skin the tone of rust, her eyes burning with lust

Pray in disbelief, this day be done
Little switchblade sister, dreaming of guns
Your courage; a disease, it's strengthening me
Oh, I'll pull the trigger, hun
Oh girl, and watch it blow up

All this, I have wanted and more
While I live in the blame
I wish the past could come take it back, so I can start it all over
All this, I have pushed to endure
Just to find out, it's breaking me
Disgustingly fit into, unhappily, with the absolute questions:
Is this what I need? Do I even feel this?

This burden's mine alone
This world will never know, as I live with it in tow

All this, I have wanted and more
While I live in the blame
I wish the past would come take it back, so I can start it all over
All this, I have pushed to endure
Just to find out, it's breaking me
Disgustingly fit into, unhappily, with the absolute questions:
Is this what I need? Do I even feel this?

Oh, I need a break from these random reality shifts and mood swings

All good boys run home to mommy, but you're not afraid no more
Go in through the front door, and give 'em hell, buddy
All good boys run home to mommy, but you're not afraid no more
Go in through the front door, and give 'em hell, buddy

Oh, I think I've made a mess
I've made a mess

All this, I have wanted and more
But while I live in the blame
I wish the past would come take it back, so I can start it all over
All this, I have pushed to endure
Just to find out, it's breaking me
Disgustingly fit into, unhappily, with the absolute questions

I can't find the answers to this life
I can't find the answers to...

I don't think there, or anyone there is just nothing
I don't think there, or anyone there is just nothing

Hold onto what you have, never let go
Find out what happens in the truth low below

Oh, I think I've made a mess
I've made a mess