"Change My Past" lyrics - FROM ASHES TO NEW

FROM ASHES TO NEW

"Change My Past"

[Intro: Danny Case]
It never goes away, I'm always looking back
Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past?

[Verse 1: Matt Brandyberry]
Feeling a type of way 'bout the past that I run from
Night and day fade to black when I'm undone
I feel lost, constantly exhausted, double-crossed
Still haunted by the monster I once was
And when the sun's gone and there's no escape
I feel the darkness take shape and show face
There's no place, I never feel safe
There's no change, hope fades, and I'll never be okay
Never be the same, but I always feel close to
Losing everything, it's almost like I'm supposed to
I chose you, let you in and gave you a home to
Become a part of me, but now I'm looking to ghost you
I hoped you disappear, but you're attached
I painted the mirror, I tried breaking the glass
I see my face in the cracks, a refraction, I'm abstract
Can't run from the past, but I'm keeping my bags packed

[Chorus: Danny Case]
It never goes away, I'm always looking back
Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past?
I'll never be okay, I'm seconds from collapse
Am I ever gonna change, ever gonna change, change my past?

[Verse 2: Matt Brandyberry]
Gone is the vessel, now there's nothing inside me
And God and the Devil are the voices behind me
But they lie, designing blue skies
While they guide me to a pasture where nobody will find me
Down a road that I'm hoping to steer through
To a home I thought I left in the rearview
To a weird room, nothing to peer through
Doors shut, curtains drawn, nobody can hear you
All this time I've been holding myself hostage
My hands tied and a blindfolded conscience
Brainwashed and overly cautious
I'm talking to myself in the cell that we're locked in
A situation, I'm dying for some relief
Negotiating the terms for my release
I find keys to set myself free, then history repeats
Nothing can save me

[Bridge: Danny Case]
And I would be nothing without you
And all that you made me
And I would be nothing without you
And how you destroy me

Panic (2020)