"Favor" lyrics - JULIEN BAKER

We took the forty down to
Visit the family, and I
Told you the only kin I knew
Was who I could see from the gurney
I used to think about myself
Like I was a talented liar
Turns out that all my friends were
Trying to do me a favor

[Chorus 1:]
I always wanna tell the truth
But it never seems like the right time
To be serious enough
I'm sorry I'm making myself cry

[Post-Chorus:]
How long do I have until
I've spent up everyone's goodwill?

[Instrumental break]

Sat on the hood, out all night
Trying to scrape together change
You pulled a moth out
From the grill of your truck
Saying it's a shame
How come it's so much easier
With anything less than human
Letting yourself be tender?
Well, you couldn't make me do it

[Chorus 2:]
It doesn't feel too bad, but it
Doesn't feel too good, either
Just like a nicotine patch, it
Hardly works, then it's over

[Bridge:]
Who put me
In your way to find?
And what right had you
Not to let me die?
Ooh, but did I even know
What I was asking for?
If I had my way
I'd have missed you more
Than you missed me
You missed me

[Outro:]
You missed me
You missed me