My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst. The most depressed I've ever been. Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead. I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now... like, I may never have a song this big again. My tour, I think every date sold out except one date. So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening (Yeah), and I felt... I didn't feel happy at all. And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad, 'cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me. 'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work."