"Blackout" lyrics - SENSES FAIL

I just drove under the Lincoln sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind
I stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say:
"I know this hurts, but it's time to break
In two pieces, the fault line is not secure"
A boat or bridge is needed to get back to her

[Chorus:]
I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
Before I find happiness

I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain, instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets, so I can fall asleep
There are times, there are times, I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on, holding on, to the slack of rope
But that's the whiskey talking, so: I hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me? 'cause I thought I'd be fine
Now I'm slurring every single line!

[Chorus:]
I feel like I'm paralyzed
When I look at the extra space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
I've got to move on before I find happiness

[Bridge:]
I've got to move on before I can find happiness
This isn't fair, nobody taught me (how to let go)
"Just be here now and you'll be set free" (from sorrow?)
But at this time, I don't see clearly (how will I know?)
What is the point? What is the meaning?

[Outro:]
Now, I'm struggling, I black out so I can't dream
But I still see you sneaking through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just wanna drown you out with southern poison
If I had a drink, for every god damn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep
If I had a shot for every god damn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep, at least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep, sleep, then at least I'd get some sleep