"Pentecost" lyrics - THE SMASHING PUMPKINS

I've been feeling lower than low with you
The highs are high but nothing that hurt can't do
What breaking a heart must prove
So you must need the pain
If your heart needs the pain
What would a heart yet do if not lose
If only one
Surrender at night
If only one

I've been saying goodbye forever
If you can recall when you'd fix and hold my gaze
And our lies were hard yet clever
And this life was sweet and not pain

I've been feeling lower than low with you
The highs are high
But nothing that hurt can't do
What breaking a heart must prove
So you must need the pain
If your heart needs the pain
What would a heart yet do if not lose
If only one
Surrender at night
If only one

I've been saying goodbye forever
For a sign once gifted me
A search that was my bliss
Of these lies that save pretenders
And this life
This light wasted as grace
Well as long as I delivered
When the walls were thin and spare
And you'd fix and hold my gaze
That's when our lies were hard yet clever
And our life was not the same