"Southbound" lyrics - WAGE WAR

Define me as a failure
Only the shadow of a man
I will suffer the judgement passed by those
Who simply do not understand
Who I am, the way I think
The pain that sets in underneath
And when I try to be myself it seems like
The insecurity gets the worst of me
Gets the worst of me

[Chorus:]
The distance, it makes me sick
But there's a new way that I'm coping with conviction
And I don't expect you to understand it
I can't leave these words unsaid
'Cause it's a product of the battle that's in my head
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me

The world will never be enough for me
I'll tell you from the top, it's only skin deep
I don't know what I believe
But it's not the way it's supposed to be
Over these past few years I admit that things have changed
Dreams became reality but the pleasure became pain
I've loved, I've lost, you wouldn't know what it cost
After every sacrifice that I have made
I'll take this to the grave

[Breakdown:]
You can be who you want to be
But your nightmares live in the same dream
Go be who you want to be

[Chorus:]
The distance, it makes me sick
But there's a new way that I'm coping with conviction
And I don't expect you to understand it
I can't leave these words unsaid
'Cause it's a product of the battle that's in my head
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me

I don't expect you to understand it
And I can't pretend that it never haunts me