"Screaming Dead Balloons" lyrics - YO LA TENGO

I sit on my lawn
Watching cars go by
I'd stay inside
[?]

I'm not [?] no more
Not afraid or alone anymore
Not afraid of the daybreak
[?] or being alone
Being alone now

When it's all been decided for you
[?]
And it's all just a matter of facts
A long goodbye

I sit in my room
With the curtain pulled tight
Sleep away the afternoon
Stay awake all night

I'm not laughing no more
Not afraid or alone anymore
Not afraid of the daybreak
[?] being alone
All alone now

When it's all been decided for you
[?]
And it's all just a matter of facts
A long goodbye