"Cyanide" lyrics - SIENNA SPIRO

Maybe I should drink some cyanide
Anything to make me disappear
Call a man to make me feel alive
'Cause I don't really care 'bout nothing at all
Just wanna be thin
So I can take it all off
Wanna make some new friends

[Chorus:]
If you wanna see my blueprint
It's not under my blue jeans
But we could sit all night
To some Jay-Z
We could've been amazing
California Daydream
Surely we ain't in love at 18
You were mine for the summer
You were mine 'till it rained
Listening to Jay-Z
Tryna feel something

Maybe I should switch to cherry wine
Might make me act less like a bitch
I know I said that I would never lie
But I don't really care 'bout you anymore
Just wanna be thin
I know it won't be enough
I just wanna make you understand

[Chorus:]
If you wanna see my blueprint
It's not under my blue jeans
We could sit all night to some Jay-Z
We could've been amazing
California Daydream
Surely we ain't in love at 18
You were mine for the summer
You were mine 'till it rained
Listening to Jay-Z
Just tryna feel, tryna feel something, oh no
And it's all I'll ever do
Listening to Jay-Z
Tryna feel something, yeah, yeah