"Growing Sideways" lyrics - NOAH KAHAN

So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed, middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
I said, "I'm cured"

And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad shit in my liver and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
But it's a start

[Pre-Chorus:]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus:]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive

So I forgot my medication, fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu, now I'm sufferin' in style
Why is pain so damn impatient? Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushin' me

[Pre-Chorus:]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus:]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive

[Bridge:]
And if all my life was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all
Oh, if all my time was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all

[Pre-Chorus:]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, Lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus:]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive